As quoting from Intangible Reverie:

Where does justice end and vengeance begin?

Read the following. Comment on it. This is where I got it from.

we have all these laws and rules for justice to be served rightly. yet, most people who go through something traumatic and survive don't make much of them. we stay quiet. we try to forget. it's a feeling that is only understood by those that have gone through it. it's a feeling that our loved ones don't understand.

everyone seems like they want to fight our battles for us because we have already been through so much. everyone wants vengence and justice. everyone says that it should be taken through the courts. and, while everyone is all riled up about doing this and doing that thinking it will make us feel better, they don't see the person turn quiet and just shy away from it. they don't see the pain in the person's eyes, nor do they notice the person just shutting everything out.

do you know what it's like to be that person? to have been put through hell and then have everyone forcing you to deal with it? it's not fun. because all you want to do is move on and go about your day like nothing happened. until that moment comes when someone forces you to cope with it.

people call us the 'silent victims' because we say nothing. we do nothing. then some get mad because they see it as we don't want anything to be done... as we aren't looking for justice.

you're right. we don't want to be bothered. because, if it had never happened, we wouldn't have to be going thru this interruption in our life. it's nice to pretend that nothing happened. that life is normal.

you can talk about suing or putting someone in jail. that's all fine and dandy. but when it comes down to it, it's not enough.

i had a friend ask me a few weeks ago, "don't you want to do something? he has to pay." i sat there in silence with not too much of an answer. well, nothing i could put in words at least.

of course, i have always wanted something to be done. i have always wanted to take out my vengence. for 3 years, i have kept that feeling. it's not a matter of wanting to do something. it's a matter of being able to do it. in my opinion, laws and courts and paperwork and jail time... it's not enough. and, i don't think the pain i would have to endure thru it is even worth the outcome. it's not that i'm not angry. i'm furious if i think about it. it's not that i'm not hurt. the healing process is always on going.

going through the legal system is not worth the time, the energy, the pain. you know what i want? i want to be able to make him feel the pain and the suffering i endured. i want him to go through what i went. i want him to worry about his own health and if his future would change in an instant. i want him to worry about the welfare of his loved ones because threats were placed on them. i want him to go through the pain in worse ways and have it destroy him slowly day by day. just so he could experience it.

justice and vengence are two different words with different meanings... but the question now is, where does justice end and revenge begin?

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  posted by MsKarenAu @ 9:02 PM